changing mentality

After seeing today's incidents at the Boston Marathon and the other things going on in the world, I know how most must feel, oh my god, what is going on in this world. I know that this is what most normal people think and are asking themselves.  But for me, its more like anger and just analyzing it along with just wanting to do something violent in return. I have come to the conclusion that I always don't feel or look at things the way  that others do because they want to assume that in their own world, no one or thing will hurt them.

Or it won't have a affect on their lives or way of things. I am sorry, from analyzing history, events, the world and mentality of people, here is a fact, we are in a world that not only dehumanizes one another, but has no value on life in general of any creature or being. I  mean if there was intelligent life out there in space, I would stay a distance away as well. I mean these events and deaths are not affecting me like they should, its almost a feeling of i knew this would happen or saw it before, very weird. I mean my ancestors all the way down the line fought  for everything for this world and country, along with many other battles against their own. I am one of those whos mentality is not probably the greatest, I mean it takes alot to get me mad, but you hit me or family or innocent or  whatever, I will be skull fucking you in a heart beat, I don't care who or what you were or are.

Theres always a way to get to you. You see, my mentality is this, I will burn your world to ashes and everything around you, then I will focus my sites/full attention on to you. . So back on subject, My changing mentality is that I am starting to not feel bad about these so called tragedies or horrific events, almost like everyday thing, violence doesn't surprise me and doesn't seem like a distant thought anymore. I am always on guard and always analyzing people and trying to see if they have angle, which i don't like because i want to give people the benefit, but when your government and people all around you  seem to have the mentality memememe and screw you, then its hard to get out of this thought train.

I mean look at employers, they will screw you due to they believe since so many people are laid off there will be plenty to replace you, if yo have kids, good luck at finding a job due to the fact if you have to take time off your screwed or pick them up when sick. this world has just become so back ass wards that I mean I look at it as a problem anymore and it will take something that will get everyone to think to change things, our country is corrupt and colder than most, i am starting to see why people leave country and go else where, i mean i will go for the union up to canada to build oil rigs and other stuff since they actually want to work you and not try to screw you even thought they have their issues. I mean you have to work to live instead of live to work. The media and the politics in this world will be the undoing of us all and with how divided people have become, i just don't care anymore about the newtown families, the president, ect, all these politicians and parties have turned everything into a circus and us them for their own agenda while the families go along with it.

If you do your history violence will always be there and weapons will as well, it will never change, you can force it, but all you do is force it underground and people to take drastic action. my bloodlines have always been involved in war among other things and from what I heard or read on them, they all understood it, but they never glamorized it by talking about it all the time or putting it on tv twenty four seven. I just don't understand why people would glamorize it or use it to benefit their causes when the world is falling apart around them, I mean I would do my job and be done, move out into the country, want to be left alone, but instead people want the attention, using religions and other things for their causes distorting the word of those religions, I mean by doing this, all of them will end up where they don't want to in the next life, most of actually will as well. I have just started to rant and not making much sense, so i will go and get my stuff done, later.

Unions or not

Okay, The working man is usually for the working man, but when the place that says they are for the workers not only discriminates against other workers, but also doesn't help or give answers to the ones that want to be in the union or work there while they sit there and wonder what the heck, I have come to a conclusion. If you are not apart of a special  group or kiss their butt  along with not being their family or favorite, then you are screwed or whatever. Unions use to be about protecting workers, getting them rights and making sure they weren't screwed by the big guy, but the more I have dealt with them, the more behind I have become in life and the less I have accomplished it has seemed. They ride on the coat tails of what their founding  fathers and brothers,sisters have created, instead of improving what they have and making all workers lives easier by fighting for their rights as well the unions, they have fallen, they are more worried about what they will get and who will pay for theirs,  what political leaders they can not only pocket, but now are going after the illegals/immigrants for workers, suppose to be american laborer and work, not replaced with foreigners. The reason why this is not considered as much for career choices is due to the fact of the hostile environment one encounters along with mismanagement and not working  half the time due to you piss someone off or people end up going another route. So when deciding this I never knew I would be ether sitting half the time not knowing what is going or what the heck I  would be doing,I mean I am working another job and waiting for work, waiting to see , but have applied to others who i would love to work for, but need to finish the degree. I mean I can't wait here for the union to make up their mind to work people or not due to their choices, so i have come down to the point of if they offer, I  will take, but if i don't hear from them, i believe i will be done with them in iowa. So to who ever reads this I understand what they have done for us in our society, but I also believe that the thought train has gone away from the path that it was to evolve to, its about what we can do for ourselves and screw the rest now days, while it should still be how can we improve the life of the modern day blue collar worker/white collar worker, I believe this is the message it needs to be. If you don't agree, then tell me what your thought is and why people need to be paid more than your average worker not only for doing the same job, but also have their benefits paid for by the same people you consider beneath you or not good enough.

school system is flawed.

okay, so i said i was gong to stay away, well i am but, figured could post something. I was going over old high school transcripts and looking at the college ones (which were way better) and you know i would have done a hell of alot better in high school if the majority of the teaching staff along with counselors would have noticed a learning disability that i had (anxiety)and the bullying due to the fact i was friends with everyone and i wouldn't fight back physically due to a reason which god knows there were plenty of us that had some sort of problem. Most people realize that in schools there is  a trend that is appearing which is bullying and learning disabilities due to the fact that the teaching system and the ability to not only get help, but to protect people from the those things is flawed, along with the gov. system,  ether you don't make enough noise or you don't have the right name. I know most say get over it or whatever, but come on, i mean reason why academics and kids are at their wits end is due to the fact that these kids are facing things that were just starting when we were in school or parents are not keeping their kids in line because they are becoming lazy or assume they are angels or drop them in front of a tv/computer, i mean my parents kept me from doing things that probably I would have been in prison due to the fact i wanted to go after people for the crap they pulled (even though we all have hiccups here or there).yes that is the reason why i didn't do much back is that fact of my temper (probably wouldn't have stopped hitting), didn't care who you were or are, i was going to make sure you payed and everyone around you, so reasons why i don't care for many people  from back in school or the day except the ones i talk to or have on facebook. would rather forget and move on since most people really don't care about you and seem to be back in school again, it seems some what to rub things in your face which is why i don't care much to talk to some and forgiveness, well sorry i am fresh out anymore. So when they are in school they are suppose to learn and be there for learning and have good memories, not this crap that seems to be going on due to crappy teachers or people. some of us still have memories and it actually pushes me to not only make my own path, but also reminds me on how to treat people and deal with them along with reminding me how far i have come, i may take the hard path at times or take a deeper look at things, but that is my personality and why sometimes i come off as hard, but i mean its how i deal with things, good people will see past it and understand, the people you don't want to deal with won't and will give up easily. So teach your kids the values and morals as well as help them with learning by being involved whether it be mentoring or whatever (don't be a helicopter parent), my parents did there best with what they had  and you  should as well, so at least your kids will have a chance. So there ends my rant and off to get crap done, figured i would put it out there since i don't care what others thing and its been stewing for a while, figured its been long enough.

health

My senses and other things seem to be getting sharper, just motivation is needing a adjustment. But thats what happens when something keeps making you sick or feeling run down. so not sure how to go about this, but i will start. This world has so much negativity in it and it transfers over to jobs and society as well as your inner self becomes tainted to the core almost to much, i am just saying, in a world where it seems that businesses and services and long with government just seem to live on the negative or screw one another, its hard to believe their haven't been more shootings or attacks. I am mentally tired of always being strong or optimistic when the world around you thrives on negativity. So i am thinking this might be one reason i will be getting rid of facebook, so much negativity  and i haven't slept as well as i had last night since not being on it. so it shows that sometimes these sites can effect your health.  I am looking at to achieve a universal fit, body and mind and spirit, i know  i won't always be able to keep the temper from showing, but i thinking i will use a healthy way of keeping it in check as well as a healthier outlook, there is always going to be negativity, but it all depends on how you let it affect you. it just seems that this world has gone global with negativity since the invention of the internet and people skills seem to be going by the way side to much.

Life

quote

That no one person  should be honored doing what is expected of themselves. 

Never tell people how to do things. Tell them what to do and they will surprise you with their ingenuity.
George S. Patton

thought

Here is a thought, if respect is suppose to be given or shown to ones who assume the majority of society is corrupted or weak, how are you suppose to not only show respect, but trust those who deal with liars or are trained to not only detect , but lie themselves. I mean when you hear them say things like this that society is weak or there is only a certain percentage that is worthy, how are you suppose to give them not only respect, but trust them or support thoem? Yes there is a mentality or culture, but when you forget where you come from and those who support you by looking down  your nose at them due to the fact that you think most people don't understand or care, your lying to yourself. Most people do care, but chose to not think about things like that and have do much on their mind  due to the fact that some don't work in those jobs. In most jobs like that you have to always think about the possible negative outcome and how to prevent it, but you can't be like that or let it take over your personality, it will harm you in more ways than one, you can still have the instincts, but don't let the negativity turn you.


Victorious warriors win first and then go to war, while defeated warriors go to war first and then seek to win.

San Tzu

Warriors are not what you think of as warriors. The warrior is not someone who fights....The warrior is one who sacrifices himself for the good of others. His task is to take care of the elderly, the defenseless, those who cannot provide for themselves, and above all, the children, the future of humanity.

Sitting Bull